Back to the Future Freddy..Rainman and Sunshine…
First of all..y..
eah..
the pictures and all of that..
but if..
you know the full 5 year history
of my
health
problems..
It’s a miracle..
Those two pictures..
and more than that..
Yeah..
I’ve got a condition related
to ‘Klippel Feil’ Syndrome..the condition
that King Tut had with the congenitally fused vertebrae..
in the neck..
Mine is T6..
My right shoulder is smaller than
my left shoulder too..
a part of ‘Klippel Feil syndrome2′
let’s just
say
the left accommodates the right for me…
and I am still right handed or both!
But!
The part I like best is my RIGHT fist looks like a SNAKE HEAD..
And my LEFT fist looks like a very small sphinx…
and/or RAM HEAD..
Did?
I mention i have the smallest male little finger of all!
That’s what makes the rest of the arm look kinda..
bigger than usual..
if you will…
But..
Here’s to ‘business’ at ‘hand’…
A toast to you..
if you will..
instead of ‘fists’…
And just a reminder FIRST!
THAT ADVERSITY IS KING TUT..
Yeah..
He weighs about
100Lbs2..
Yet he IS revered
for his
‘special strengths’ anyway3…
This is a blog link i found through a shared link from ‘an autistic internet friend’…
It brings back many memories of youth..
and the lifelong challenges that continue to this day…
I often save comments i make here..
as
sometimes the letters, numbers, songs, music, lyrics, photos, moving pictures and other symbols are the only friends that i find ‘who’ will not let me down..
as even though my intentions are always what i view as positive in total effect…
some people view them much differently…
and i understand i can be a challenge..
but it is just me..
that is all..
i am older now..
and freer to once again express the nature that i was born with more fully now..
i am truly free again as i was when i was a child before entering the world of conformity in school and work…
YOu see as a person with a mountain of reciprocal social communication..
CHALLENGES
This IS what eventually results for ME after decades of adversity and adaptation to whatever comes..
And this will also be an introduction to my next post called ‘Rainman and Sunshine’ that will be in total effect only ‘a visionary expression’ of poetry or prose..
if you will..
I Am planning on ‘Wisdom of the Ancients’..
next..
but the ‘visions’ must come 1st..
I guess…
But i digress..
Here is the comment i made to the link first..
Before the ‘visionary experience of poetry and prose’…
if you will…
As an Autistic male with the Asperger’s variety mixed in with the nonverbal..called PDDNOS in the US..
Now described as Autistic Spectrum Disorder…
This resonates with me…
That’s what it’s like to grow up different like this…
I learned my angry face and stare to off put the laughs off my unsteady gait..
with little care for my outward appearance and no desire to live anywhere but my mind…
WElL..
I have a really angry face…
now..
That I can show the world..
But inside I have the smiling face that I had when I was a child and first went to school..
That the other boys told me I could not share..
as that was gay…
My other challenge is i was a boy that looked like a girl…
YOu see..
Androgyny is common among ‘higher functioning’…
Autistic children..
There is even research now that backs up this common anecdotal story that you will see repeated over and over on sites for Autistic people..
’the higher functioning’ kind..
On Websites like Wrong Planet…
But ‘better’ yet..
There is also research that shows that these same children when they grow older retain higher levels of DHA resulting in a life long..
Even into middle age appearance of youth and strength..
Did I mention i AM 53..?
Proof of THIS is in my photography…
I learnmy verbal language through a sing song pattern of lyrical notes of voice and now I learn to write in the same sing song pattern of lyrical notes..
It’s like poetry without rhyme some times..
if you will..
It’s willality too as i now make words freely that suit my autistic nature2…
Oh! did i mention i incorporate numbers2?
as they are my friends too..
Like letters and other symbols that match the ‘hyperlexic’ nature of my mind…
with the Echolalia too2…
This is what the future Freddy sounds like from 1964..
When he could not talk or write..
Only read..
Real..
really really fast and get all the input..
and the output..
was missing then..
But oh! no! not now..
as I found an accommodation through IT..
and have written over 6 million words on the internet…
on over 13 sites..
on my ‘gravatar profile’..
KATiE MiA FredericK!iI..
or
katiemiafrederick…
Along with visual and auditory expression through moving pictures..
photos..
song..
and anything goes..
if you will..
I write..
I visualize..
i output now…
I invite to you to read my blogs..
and various other mediums for expression2..
i don’t belong anywhere..
i am the invisible man..
not many..
if anyone..
fully understand me still…
my output that is…
Oh!
But!
You can be assured that your son!
And other ‘quiet’ Autistic people know much..
MUCH…
more than meets ‘they..’ ‘eye’..
Autistic people can be slow bloomers..
but sometimes when they finally…
bloom..
They literally explode..
Like a 6 pointed star..
if you will…
BUT first!
Here is a little mood music by Rhianna..
That is extra kool..
Kkause JAY-Z talks about Rainman and little Ms. Sunshine2…
And the ‘Chi’ energy of Rhianna’s dancing produces the visual image of a RA-
M
In the muscles of her well developed Female back..
And the song..
‘The Invisible Man’
by
Queen and Freddy Mercury..
As
when I move like this through ‘Super Walmart’..
NOW…
the
Adults don’t acknowledge that they ‘see’ me..
But!
The Kids join in on all the ‘fun’
If you will..
They still live in ‘heaven’..
LIKE
ME
NOW!
And my birthday in the middle of GEmini..
@66/1960…
12/16
37
10
1
ALONG WITH MY ‘SPECIAL’ NAME..
AND NUMEROLOGY…
TELLS
ME
TO
TELL YOU..
YOU CAN SHARE THAT2!
THAT IS ALL..
THE CHALLENGE FOR ME !
IS!
TO TAKE YOU THERE!
OMG!
I HAVE NOT GIVEN UP!
YET!
i like structure and routine..
My new ‘AUTISTIC’ routine and structure ‘INSISTS’
THAT I MAKE A NEW ‘SPECIAL’
post
for the D-verse poetry International Poetry club
by
2 pm central time
each Tuesday…
IT’S SATURDAY
THE 21ST
SEPTEMBER
2013..
IT’S THE 24 ANNIVERSARY
221/2013
5/6
11
2
OF MY WIFE AND I’S CONSUMMATION
OF OUR MARRIAGE
BEFORE WE GOT MARRIED
ON
221/90
5/9
14
5
(yeah..i know too much information..AND all of that)
BUT!
I LOVE STRUCTURE AND ROUTINE..
MY GRANDFATHER WASIS AN ‘XCATHOLICK’
PRIEST!
I
GUESS!
I
GOT !
THAT!
FROM!
HIM..
WHAT CAN I SAYY..
ANYWAY MY ‘RICH’ UNCLE BOB INVITED ME TO CELEBRATE
HIS AND HIS SON’S BIRTHDAY AND SOME OTHER THINGS..
SO!
I
WILL
PUBLISH NOW!
AND THE REST OF THIS POST WILL GRADUALLY
FORM
BY TUESDAY
224/2013
8/6
14
5
@
2PM…
THE PHOTO FLOW IF YOU WILL..AND OTHER THINGS
INSTEAD OF WORDS..
SORRY! IF YOU DON’T HAVE A FAST COMPUTER!
BUT!
IF YOU GET HERE BEFORE THE MULTIMEDIA EXPLOSION
YOU CAN AT LEAST READ THIS!
if you will…
1..2..5..5..
13
4
Well…
I am not going to finish the ‘Rainman and Sunshine’ part of this post…
until tonight..
The atypical Trigeminal Neuralgia also affected my right ear where I could not listen..
to music or even any human voices for about 5 years2..
without extreme discomfort…
So I have an..
appointment to make my car radio a new one with really good sound..
@bestbuy today..to really really celebrate..the fact that I can hear now2..
I love music..did i mention that..yeah i think I did..
But it is probably just..
as
well..that i post this at d-verse poetry club..at 2 as is..
As..the multimedia still to come…will certainly slow down the loading fun..
But if you are really curious..
they are all in my Flickr feed on my katiemiafrederick.com Word Press Blog…
My sister says they are good..i’m not so sure as every visual image is really good for me now..that I can fully use my eyes..
But I’ll take her word for IT..as she never lies either on purpose..just like me…
It is not in our blood..if you will..
And beyond this all the really really deep thoughts are in the..
comments section as I have been doing for some time now..
As I have been told..
that
some of that can cause headaches..do no harm and all of that..
I guess…
Please view at your own discretion…
Smiles..not to be afraid of..only what I see in my opinion as truth..will..love..light and all..
that..
STUFFF…
I like that word..I stole it from White Pearl..
hehe…
I can be..
mischievous2.
But if you are waiting for the whole blog show post tonight..here is my human anthem..
for what ‘my feels’..
like to me knownow..
If the boy in the video is not autistic..I guess he doesn’t know it yet..maybe…but he will.. see that too someday.. maybe…
I hate things out of balance..
There is also a feminine side to me too..
I am no longer..
shy..
so I can prove it..
Here is me in my mini shirt..before I took all the pictures yesterday..
Haha..I can make fun of myself2.
Well i guess i am running behind or ahead..
But i feel I am still moving in a flowed direction..
if you will…
I usually get 2 hours of sleep but got 6 last night and feel extra charged today..
So I am going to work out at 7 am instead of 7 pm…
I look for inspiration everywhere..
in this life..
and..
Discount no resource!
Miley Cyrus!
is
an inspiration to me..
As
I understand the repression of the background of the
culture she grew up in…
She is completely free in the liberty of our country to express herself!
No matter what others think!!
She owes no one!
but
herself!
This is what makes America GReat!
And this is why I still feel patriotism of those pictures on the NAVY BASE!
I took..
But still have not pasted here!
This!
IS
What!
Brings Tears to my FACE!
LIBERTY AND FREEDOM FOR ALL!
OH GOD! IT WAS SO KOOL WHEN I HEARD MILEY!
AND
HER FRIENDS! SINGING ABOUT SHADES AND MINISKIRTS!
WHEN I WOKE UP THIS MORNING AT 2:44AM!
OH!
AND THE J’S OF NIKE2
OH!
AND 23..2
SYNCHRONICITY..
COSMIC CONSCIOUSNESS!
THE SUPRAORGANISM OF MIND!!
THE ONE!!!
GOD!!!!
ALLAH!!!!!
Call IT!!!!!!
WHATEVER!!!!!!!
YOU WILL!
WE ARE ALL CONNECTED FOR THOSE WHO TRULY SEYES!
Much more !
to
Come!
IF YOU WILL
W
VICTORY OR VENGEANCE
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5
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926/2013
17/6
8/6
14
5
I suggest the free flow of creativity..
and the connectedness of all human beings..
and all other animals and material connectivity..
IS
GOD…
THE ONE..
CHRIST!
ALLAH..
OR..
WHATEVER..
WHAT
SEYES
IT
OR
YOU?
IS
AM
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