I’M ALIVE! IT’S MY BIRTHDAY2
Ugh!..
After yesterFULLday’s
activities..
of
writing
Dance Walking!
RAVE DANCING1
FOR ABOUT
20 HOURS..
not to mention
3 hours
of sleep
before that..
and
Marathon
activities
as
same
the
day
before..
INCLUDING
INTERNET
NUDE
ARTISTIC
STRIPPING
i
got the pictures
placed last night
butt!
OH MY GOD..!
TOO TIRED
TO
MAKE
ANY
MORE
WORDS!
SO HEAR I AM
TODAY
HERE..
AT ABOUT
11
AM
ON MY
BIRTHDAY
AND ACTUALLY
11
AM
IS
MY
BIRTH
TIME
TOO..
SO
i guess
that
is
kool
2
!
And sure i’m gonna make a special
Birth
DAY
post
later today
hear
write
now;)
on my other
blogs
but..
i
am simply
so
happy
to be alive
IS
ALL
after the last 5 years
of
living
in
NON
HUMAN
SHUT
IN
HELL
BEFORE
LAST
SUMMER
WHEN
i
become
ALIVE
AGAIN..
FULL
MEMBER
OF HUMANITY
ONCE
AGAIN..
TRULY
LIKE
A
PHOENIX
RISING
FROM
ASHES..
AS
SA
ME
!
Last June 6th..
all
i
did
is
Marathon
writing
from
the 5th
into
the
6th
in
2013..
no movement
for me..
in
fully
body
ways..
just
typing..
typing..
writing
a
way
to
find
my
heart..
soul..
spirit..
and
beyond
wITh
ALLITIS!
AKA
GOD!
A
GAIN
ALIVE!
4
FULLY
BEING
HUMAN
BEING
!
2
AND
I COULD FIND
NO CONNECTION
WITH FOLKS ON
THE INTERNET
IN THE SO CALLED
AUTISTIC
ONLINE
COMMUNITY
WHO
ARE IN EFFECT
and
MOST DEFINITELY
IN
AFFECT
FOR
THE
MOST
PART
DEAD SOULS
LIKE
ME
THEN
2..
IT’S
THE TRUTH
IT’S
SAD
BUT
YES
IT’S
THE
TRUTH
NEVER
THE LESS..
MOST OF THOSE
FOLKS
ARE ZOMBIES
AND
CAN
NOT
EVEN
KNOW
IT
AS SUCH..
AS
TRULY
THEY
KnOW
NOT
THEY
ARE
DEAD
IN
AFFECT
OF HUMAN
EMPATHIC
BEING…
MOSTLY
LOGIC
LITTLE
VERY
LITTLE
HEART..
SOUL..
SPIRIT..
AND little2NO REALIZATION
OF
FULLY
ALLITIS
AKA
GO
D
!
AND SADDEST OF ALL
LITTLE
TO
NO
HUMAN
MOVEMENT
IN
DANCE
2
!
BLINDED TO GOD
IS OFTEN
ATHEISM
BUT
4
THOSE
WHO GAIN
EYES..
OF
SEEING
WITHOUT
EYES..
OR
WORDS..
GOD
AKA
ALLITIS
IS
EVERYWHERE
ONE
BE..S…
SO
i
made this
post called
the Garden
of
Bandaid..
linked
here..
from then
last June 6th..
in search
of
human connection
in
only
my mind
of
memory
sparking
it
with
MAGICK
MUSICK
AS
SUCH..
BUT..
I NEVER DREAMED
A YEAR WILL
PASS..
AND
i
will be an infamous
and
now
yes..!
VIEWED BY
MANY
OTHERS
AS
famous
dancer
in my local
area
where i live..
FREELANCE
AS SUCH..
NEVER FOR MONEY
BUT
FOR
THE
JOY
OF DANCE..
EVERYWHERE
i
go..
over 1400 miles…
and so many
more
miles
not measured
on
my
NIKE GPS
SPORTS
WATCH..
SINCE
September
2013..
and
i guess..
while some folks
at
first did
no understand
my
FREEDOM
OF
DANCING
TOTALLY
WILD
AND
FREE
IN
TAI
CHI
WAYS..
AT SEVILLE
QUARTER
PENSACOLA
FL..
AT
FIRST
11 WEEKS AGO..
NOW THEY
CHEER FOR ME..
HUG ME..
SHAKE MY HANDS..
AND
HIGH FIVE ME..
GIRLS
AND
GUYS
ALIKE…
LAST JUNE
NO ONE
COULD
SEE ME..
ANYWHERE
ON OR OFF
LINE
PER
MY
HEART..
SOUL..
SPIRIT..
AND BEYOND
WITH
ALLITIS!
AKA
GOD..!
NOW
i
am a shining
beacon
of light
in
MORE
THAN
WORDS
ALONE!
I
AM
ALIVE!
And
perhaps the
most beautiful
thing of all
in my
life last
July
2013..
as
my pain disorder
aka
the
suicide disease..
did not allow
me
to connect to anyone
in real life..
as
everything hurt
everywhere
in
real life..
There is one
Angel
that comes
my way..
but
HELL
NO
NOT
IN
THE
ONLINE
AUTISTIC
COMMUNITY
OF
DEAD HEARTS AND SOULS..
SHE TOO..
IS A LITTLE
BIT
NERD..
COMPUTER SCIENTIST
AS SUCH..
BUT
HER MUSLIM
RELIGION
IS TRULY
MOSTLY
ABOUT
LOVE..
AND
SHE WALKS THE TALK
IN WRITING
OF
SACRED LOVE
AS SUCH..
NO MATTER
HER
CHALLENGES
IN LIFE EITHER..
Well her hardships
are less now
i think..
and it seems
she now becomes
happily married
in fear
of something
else
through the Dowry process
in
Pakistan as such..
but
i will never
forget her kindness
for a faceless
and nameless individual
on the
INTERNET THEN..
WITH ONLY
ARTHUR
AND YELLOW BOY
CAT
AVATARS..
AND MY
BABY PICTURE
FROM THE
WRONG
PLANET
YES!
THE DAM
WRONG
PLANET!
INTERNET
SITE
AS SUCH..
FOR DEAD HEART
AND
SOUL
SO CALLED
AUTISTIC
FOLKS…
WHICH I DO STILL
RESPECT FOR THOSE
FOLKS
ARE HUMAN
TOO..
AND AGAIN
THEY KNOW
NOT
WHAT
THEY
DO..
PER THE EMPATHY
STUFF..
EITHER CULTURE
INFLUENCED
OR BORN
THAT WAY..
IT IS
WHAT
IT
IS
2
!
But anyway..
i promises my only
true friend
then
on
Internet
the
21 year old
girl
from
Pakistan
White Pearl..
aka
LALA RUKH..
THAT
i will always
visit her
blog
in her
absence
now
in
HIATUS
AS SUCH..
ON THE 6TH
OF EVERY
MONTH
TO
TELL HER
SOMETHING..
AND
i honor
her
today
2..
as
GRAVITY!
of someone
saving
an anonymous
person’s
heart and soul
through
simple
Sacred Love
unconditionALLY
as such..
YES!
CAN!
SAVE!
THE WORLD!
IF MORE PEOPLE!
LIVE!
AND
LOVE!
LIKE!
THIS!
A
LIVE!
A
GAIN!
Well..
dear..
it’s the 6th..
and as promised..
DURING times of your Hiatus..
as a faithful friend..
i will continue to celebrate my connection to your life..
as you helped me so much last Summer..
to come alive again..
And i guess..
happiness is coming your way stronger..
as sometimes..
it is the dark..
that inspires the greatest light..
as ya know..
and sometimes the light blinds us from the dark..
but the dark always exists before light….
as well as after light…..
And hearing this song..
that i hope somehow ya can hear somewhere..
where ya live..
as it is extremely popular..
called Once Upon a dream..
is from the Movie Maleficient..
telling the tale of Sleeping Beauty..
from the perspective of Maleficient..
the so called dark one in that movie…
As often is the case..
the greatest darkness..
can and does..
produce the greatest light…
in BEING…
AND IF..
there is anything..
ya have been to me..
It is mysterious..
and yes..
at times..
at times..
SHADOWS OF THE DIVINE….
SO HERE IS THE SONG..
and yes..
if ya don’t come back by the 6th of July..
i’ll be back again here..
to tell ya something….
again…
OH and today..
by the way..
is my 54th birthday..
and i guess talking to ya makes it complete too..
IN NOW..
SMILES…
and
wink..2..
Lots ofXXLove…4ya2!..;):)!
and
wink..2..
Lots ofXXLove…4ya2!..;):)!
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