Dark bird of Anxiety
This
post inspired by the
only
other
mid-life
diagnosed
Autistic
POETICALLY
TALKING
ONLINE
person
of
the
Asperger’s
variety..
i
come
across
on
the
Internet..
a
visual..
pattern..
and
word
thinker..
so
unusual
like
me
in
Online so called
Autistic
communities..
THAT
i
avoid
like
the
PLAGUE
NOW!
UNFORTUNATELY..
BUT
NOT
A
PLACE
FOR
ME!
OR
THE
FOLKS
TO
DEAL
WITH
A
TOTALLY FREE
DUDE
LIKE
ME
!
virtual
places
for
people
to
attempt
to
be
their
inner
self..
as
free..
i don’t feel comfortable linking
her
allegory
to
what
seems
to
be
the
Albatross of anxiety..
TO
INSURE
i
don’t
make
her
anxious..
but
most people have an idea about
anxiety
anyway huh..
yah..!
in
a
fast pace
CRAZY
WORLD
WE
LIVE
IN
no
wonder!
and
not
much
NEED
TO
EXPLAIN
WHAT
ANXIETY
IS!
now!
to
AMERICANS
AT
LEAST!
This
seems to me to be
powerful words
that describe what can truly be
the Albatross of human generalized anxiety..
never a source that one can quite grasp..
but always a source
that limits the laugh of life for long..
and in some cases
completely extinguishes
both laugh and smile out of life…
Been there done it..
attending military psychiatrist..
dealing with hundreds of military PTSD clients..
identifies me as his worst case yet…
Hmm..
hard to believe..
in fact almost impossible for people to believe..
that see me dancing and doing martial arts exhibitions..
in front of hundreds..
at times solo..
and
delivering speech in front of funeral audience
and such as that..
But even more impossible
and evidence of some kind of miracle…
for people who knew me then..
i guess what i wanna say is..
it’s possible to get rid of all of it..
But for me.
it truly is a miracle..
and nah..
i don’t have the instructions to get there…
but
hope..:)
hope..:)
and the power of..
BELIEVE…!
MOREOVER IN YA
SELF!
MOREOVER IN YA
SELF!
i believe as social animals..
the source of most anxiety
is that of being unaccepted
in all the flavors that comes in..
in all the flavors that comes in..
in human life..
and yeah definitely been there and
done the extreme of that too..
done the extreme of that too..
particularly in middle school life..
when some humans become
incredibly mean..
incredibly mean..
when puberty awakens..
in efforts to literally destroy
the perceived weak
fish in the aquarium…
fish in the aquarium…
Sometimes after several decades
of living with the pain..
hidden away..
no longer surfacing
it still dwells
and pokes its way up..
to the surface of core of human fear
of not being good enough
to exist among fellow ones..
who seem to thrive so easy…
Sooner or later the love for one’s i of me..
can replace the I of I of i of me..
be
SACRED LOVE..
conquer! all! fear..!
forevermoreNOW
But again..
i don’t have many instructions..
Miracles are hard to put into words..
but i’ll keep trying..:)as i hate to see folks cry without tears..:(…..with only fears…..!
Upon
the
depths
of
the
greatest
darkness
the
ALBATROSS
BECOMES
THE
PHOENIX
AND
RISES
AGAIN!
OUT
OF
ASHES
OF
*!500WORDSgainst!FEAR!again@WORD500!*
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