My CAT IS my super HERO!
‘i remember the lies..
caught up in building paradise..
the angels were slaves..
the demons behaved..
and everything was
alright’
Lyrics from the song ‘On Top of the World’..
a theme song
by the group ‘Greek Fire’
of
the Disney Movie
Big Hero 6
that opened yesterday
and
i
am celebrating it as i go to see it
today with this post..
along with my life
of
course
on
course….
Another brilliant effort from Disney to
provide ethical lessons
to the ‘herd’
of
how to free oneself
from the
darker side
of our
culture…
yes..
surmising from the Trailer so
far.. Big Hero 6 is programmed as
a super empathic being to feel the
ills of others
and
to heal
as well…
But the problem is..
Big Hero’s soft exterior..
He needs some armor
to
GET
THE JOB
DONE…
AND YES..
i can relate to this.. born of the empathic
being that yes..
is my mother..
and
becoming empath
and
soft on the exterior as well…
The problem with the mix of empathy on the inside
and marshmallow exterior..
Is there are some non-empathic beings..
that see the soft exterior as an advantage
they
WILL
TAKE CONTROL OF FOR THEIR
SOMEWHAT SELFISH
TO
EXTREMELY SELFISH
GOALS..
AND LIKELY AT TIMES UNWITTINGLY..
BUT NEVER THE LESS..
THE ANGELS WHO DO BECOME SLAVES..
ARE OFTEN ENSLAVED..
WHEN
THEIR DEMONS ONLY KNOW
HOW
TO
BEHAVE..
AND THAT WAS ME..
A PERFECTIONIST TO THE TEE..
WILLING TO NEVER BREAK A RULE..
FOR
CULTURAL ACCEPTANCE
FROM
THE
TRIBE..
AND
OMG! WAS THAT EVER A BIG MISTAKE..
AS
IN THE END..
IT
WAS ALMOST
THE
END
OF
ME..
FOR SURE..
ENDING UP WITH 19 DOCUMENTED
MEDICAL DISORDERS SIMPLY
AS
i
had NO WILL to say NO!
when someone needed something
of
me..
even if it was killing me inside..
second by second…
i accomplished what was asked of me..
with
A SOFT SMILE…
AND THE CRUELEST PART OF THAT..
WAS IN THE END.. YES ALMOST THE END…
ALL MY ‘ANGEL EMPATHY’
WENT AWAY..
AND
i could not even feel love from cats..
the one’s who always accepted me for what i was inside..
not for what i could do for them..
on the
outside..
as
WILLING SLAVE
WHERE MY DEMONS HAD NO VOICE
TO
RAISE
OBJECTION
TO
INNER
HELL..
WELL..
while i
attempted
to build a
paradise..
in
FUTURE bank-roll ways..
the only happiness i truly had then..
was working in my yard here and there..
the only true connection to Mother Nature True
and or
GOD then…
and yes my family
and the neighborhood cats..
that i could not live with inside
as cat and dog allergies
also
ruled my life..
But when my emotions left me..
i was so desperate to feel anything..
i said the hell with the allergies..
as i was already in hell
anyway..
and let a cat in..
a big fat gray one..
and
a
half wild one from outside…
but the
start
of
my healing in the five year journey BACK
TO
HUMANITY..
starts with a lightening fast sinewed thin..
yellow cat..
living on his own..
wild and free..
and
HUNGRY FOR LIFE..
IN THE BACKWOODS OF MY HOME…
The pain disorder.. type two Trigeminal Neuralgia
i suffered from.. that was like having one’s
teeth drilled without novocaine..
except it was in my
right eye..
and
ear..
established
the necessity of having
a metal chain in my bicycle
basket i carried everywhere i went
as i could no longer
walk
without passing out
as my head had to be winded cool
to keep the blood in my head..
to keep from passing out..
from the disorder
dysautonomia..
yes..
it wasn’t a matter of whether or not
i wanted to commit suicide..
as i loved my life and family..
all my life..
it was a matter of if the
pain became so bad..
there
was no
choice..
but remember..
it wasn’t like a migraine
or cluster headache..
OR EVEN
CHILD BIRTH
WITH PAIN KILLERS..
as no there was no drug
that could touch this pain…
IT was like
human torture every second of every waking
hour.. never going away..
for five long years..
until one day..
in July of 2013
like
a real human miracle
from
GOD..
YES..!
MOTHER NATURE TRUE!
it went away.. and all the other disorders
including Sjogren’s Syndrome.. where my eyes..
quit making tears.. yes..! were miraculously
healed or as the doctors say..
went in to
remission…
But i know in my heart..
it was the freeing of my emotions..
that Yellow Boy helped as he
needed me with cries of
kitty help underneath
our shed that first
day
he
decided our home would now be his
own…
Every piece of cat food i provided that
came to tame him..
was
the key to me thawing
a
frozen heart..
and
teaching me that one day i too..
WILL have to develop
a TOUGH exterior..
if i wanted to truly help
others too..
without being taken
advantage
of…2
So yes.. that’s what i did..
i became not just a LOVER..
but a FIGHTER too..
and the results are clear now..
from dancing 2500 miles wherever i go..
in a little over 14 months..
in public..
no matter what the naysayers.. say or do..
or nude renaissance male art..
with no shame..
for
my human nature..
to yes..
leg pressing 810 LBS on parallel
Nautilus free weight machine…
as documented a few posts ago..
both in video and photos..
for those that
say..
photos or it didn’t happen..;)
And this is my place to count my many blessings..
to celebrate the true paradise of nature
i did help to create in my
yard..
to be a witness
for the miraculous healing
power of the
ONE TRUE GOD
of
MOTHER NATURE TRUE
i
come to know
and communicate with
in synchronicity
way..
Nah..
not
necessarily
A GOD
of a book.. made by man..
THE same GOD that speaks to me
IN MOTHER NATURE TRUE..
on that desolate pristine
beach of younger years…
walking naked in
eyes
of
GOD
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